Photo update

em.. few weeks ago photo.. lots, but just few of these.. take from my facebook there.. i drop my thumdrive at my friends there, so i can only get these 3..

hee..

in these photo, i was already trim and dye my hair d..

am song a while! haha

Doreen, me and mary.. they two quite siao 1.. we 3 are the tallest girls in our class! hee.. i like this pic!

that day we celebrate poh jing (the right hand side pink shirt wearing spec) 20 years old birthday in our dormitary.. actually that time i m still on my mc period, but busy body, curi curi run back without any notification to give them a surprise! i was at the behind, the tallest 1! the left hand side wearing black shirt beauty is came from Nirgua, Venezuela.. she was a missionary student in our adventist, dont siao siao, she now only 23 but she already get degree in pshycology, will start her master soon!

yee... my ugly ugly face.. Irene sim was behind me, that day i was counted as VIP too.. cox i just accident for~ em.. i think is the 5th day, wednesday, 4 of august i think. go there kacau kacau till 10:30pm only leave our dormitary. after leave the dormitary, i remember i went to ivory cc there. cox that night i didnt hang out with my friends. hee..

20082009

doing nothing and nothing to do
yesterday
went to queensbay with min kar..
saw lots of nice shirts, nice dress, nice shoes but our money in purse not nice!!
hahaxx..
went to bead zone, i saw a black scarf damn nice
but~
i need to sayang my purse first, consider to buy it when i get my allowence ba..
hee.. min kar know what am i thinking
at last she bought it for me for my coming 18 years old birthday present lerh!!
hahaxx.. min kar!! love you~~
watch the movie 'the proposal' with min kar in the evening
at night.. em.. midnight..
went to watch the movie 'overhead' with the same SPECIES
whole cinema room only four people nia lorh..
not bad larh the movie, after watching the movie
what i can say is
never ever play the share lorh, will die eh lorh, not just the person who play it kena nia
but the family also will sui siao kena 1..
ham ka chan.. si liao liao!!
after the movie went to find Ireen at jelutong having steamboat at her mother's house
that time already midnight 2 something.. hahaxx
of course i cant eat larh.. kua gen went i saw the roast pork!!
hmm.. lazy go back home.. over night there
hee.. now still at her mother's house..
just wake mah..

18082009

yooo..
i really nothing to do lorh..
everyday doing nothing, sembang here sembang there
and my daily life time totally different with people lorh..
hang out at night time, sleep at day time..
owl life.. hahaxx
hope my college fast fast reopen larh
i dont want to take my year end vacation to replace lorh..
i already got plan in this end of the year
sipek mahuan
do til nothing to do..
wake up online co siao with my friends, lie on bed, talk with my aunt my cousin
wait time to pass, wait the coming of the night hang out with the same SPECIES
midnight only come back
this 1 month my daily life is like that larh..
yesterday go out with joo huei.. sembang til 10 something then fetch she back home
continue my hang out with the same SPECIES
sian~~~~
haiz..
blog also update til nothing to update.. luan luan update
hahaxx
bye~
i think is the time to hang out d.. kekexx
but i got 1 thing want make a shout out
xiao bai lian!! i dont care about you anymore!!
hahaxx!!
yay~~ i finally make it!

Days

midnight..

just back home, dunno why tonight cant slp..

just now went to fetch jesmine back home from sri sayang there.

update blog again..

just now afternoon when i was hang out with my same SPECIES at queensbay mall

i recieved a call from my class tutor

she told me that my college will close 1 more week

reopen on 23 of august

walao eh.. my holiday sooooo loonnngggg!

ya, but pity to my classmate larh.

they cant go back.. continue quarantine~

and my welcome back party have to delay until 23 of august larh.

haiz.. should i say i lucky or they bad luck?

hee.. but i got bit sui..

i feel happy wo actually

because i can hang out for 1 more week larh..

bahahaha..

recently i feel relax than before

very excited when the night is coming

feel full of energy during night time compare to day time

owl? hee..

wont feel sad, bored and lonely anymore

someone makes me smile from the deep heart again..

let it be..

tml hiking! yeah!

em, actaully is later larh, now already 3:10am 15 of august

hee.. OKU hiking!! yao yeng!!

处女座

都说处女座另类，双重性格，甚至有点神经质，其实原因只有一个，处女座的一切都要随自己外显的性格而转， 姑且称之为“状态”。处女座状态好的时候，可以将自己聪明、细腻、能干、温情、幽默、有内涵等优良品质完全外展，此时他们显得如此完美，光芒四射，并且可 以表现得非常外向、健谈，容易与人打成一片（这本非他们的性格）。而一旦处女座状态不好，便会变成另一个人，甚至非常窝囊，一事无成，不过通常此时他们都 躲避外在的干扰,所以让人感觉有点间歇性自闭症)因为同为水星守护，所以处女和双子一样善变，但双子善变的是心思，处女善变的却是情绪。

　　
很多时候处女座要面对很多实际的琐事，这时的处女座便不得不在冷中面对周围世界：要么说话做事很不自然，有做作的痕迹；要么便极度冷漠和被动，对谁都不理不睬。其实处女座很清楚自己现在的样子，但他们无力改变和控制自己的情绪，只能选择疯狂地逃避一切。

他 们想的是：与其很不自然地面对你，尴尬地和你说些无关痛痒地话，或是因和平时反差太大而被人说成表里不一，性格怪异，还不如先躲一阵子，等调节好了以后再 出来。所以，在与人交往中，他们只会和不得不交流的人（实在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正无所谓）交谈，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏远。

所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越远。特别是恋人.

而 且,大家都知道处女座的人有严重的完美主义倾向,所以就有了所谓的\\'处女座的人最喜欢若即若离\\'。原因很简单：他只想给你一个最好最完美的自己， 而不愿让你看到他无助脆弱的一面。所以请记住，有时处女座对你冷，绝不是你说错做错什么，这是他们正常的生理现象，他们只是不想让严寒和冰霜伤害了你（可 事实上这种做法已经伤害）。不必难过，因为他们在乎你的话，他们的内心比你还要难过、自责和内疚！他们所能做的，只希望快点调整好情绪，回到你的身边。

正基于以上两点，处女座有时便会表现出非常另类的行为和思维模式。他们的性格也很多来源于此：不喜主动，不善交际（也可以热情，只是今天热了，终有一天会冷的），不爱表现，不喜抛头露面（万一哪天情绪无法把握状态不好时，岂不大失脸面），诸如此类。

关于“洁癖”并非处女都有洁癖，很多处女座并不爱干净，但却要求整洁，他们更多的是井然有序，不喜欢别人破坏他们所整理和布置的“完美”格局。处女座更多的是有精神洁癖。一旦触碰到他们精神上的禁区，严重时会表现得歇斯底里。

关 于“花心”一般说来处女座绝不花心，忠诚是他们的代名词。异性关系多很可能是他们需要确定一个好人缘和自己有魅力，来反击那些普遍观点。一旦找到心中真 爱，他会呵护你一辈子，只要你能给他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。寻花问柳，红杏出墙这些事与他们绝缘（一是责任感所致，二是怕麻烦）。

关 于“聪明”不似双子灵活机巧，不象水瓶创意非凡，也不是天蝎的那种计画周密，处女座更多体现的是智慧。细腻、理性、好学加上十二星座里一流的洞察力和最强 的逻辑思维能力，处女座想不聪明都难。没事少在处女座面前信口开河，随意撒谎，很多伪纱他们一眼便能看透；也别跟他们玩什么心计，你玩不过他们的。处女是 那种可以把你卖了你还得向他道谢的类型。没事也少跟处女座辩论，他们没理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一条理来。处女是永远不会吃亏的。

关于“单纯”处女座很纯真，但绝不单纯，他们内心复杂得让人难以想象，很多不经意的事可能都是他们精心布置的。处女座也总在纯洁和好色之间徘徊，这一点最难说清。不过他们真正的内心是极其善良的，
宁可自己苦也不愿伤害任何人，心灵如水晶一般晶莹剔透。

关于“幽默”都说处女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他们接触吧，你会体会到什么是冷幽默，什么是真正的幽默，而并非品位低俗的搞笑。

关于“迟钝”别看你和处女座说某些提议时他们半天才反应过来，在你说好的一瞬间，他们脑子里可能已经转过五六个你这项提议会造成的后果（通常是消极后果）了。他们总是想得太多，绝非想得太慢。

关于“自私”处女座的自私觉不是狮子的那种惟我独尊，也不是水瓶的以自我为中心。处女座正因为是无私的，所以显得自私。（能够理解吗？）因为处女不想伤害任何人。

关 于“逃避”由于处女座性格上的因素，他们通常会显得压力很大。当周遭的事物已无法掌控，或是自己的情绪无法调节好时，他们会疯狂地逃避，堕落自己，这种状 况通常对别人无害，却是伤害自己，让所有爱他们的人感到心碎。不过不用太担心，过一阵子他们自己会好的，他们天性的自我批判精神很快便会起作用。处女座一 般不会彻底堕落，堕落前可能都已留有余地，只是在等待着希望的来临。甚至有时堕落都是做给别人看的。

关于“内涵”处女座有涵养这一点是肯定的。在成长中不断吸取教训，不断学习，取人之长来丰富自己的内涵。因为他们感觉到情绪无法把握，而这些是自己可以踏踏实实做到的，将来一定有帮助。这是他们所追求的完美主义目标。

处女座就是一个表面神秘到难以琢磨，说穿了却又很简单的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，处女座喜欢这样
来标榜自己。因为他们确实有超凡脱俗的一面。他们的内心接近了神，可是身在这个世界，不能不食人间烟火吧，所以必须得戴着一个面具活在这个世界上。

处女座喜欢和人说些暧昧的话，对心仪的对象却不好意思表白。
处女座希望别人了解自己，却又只将能公布的那一部分对外展示。
处女座是最有责任感的人了，可很多时候却害怕承担责任。

Mou Liu

very mou liu..
dont know what to do
hang out with friends go here go there
cant sit diam diam
hand also cant diam diam
recently i very like to update my blog
apa pun boleh tulis
i really nou liu~~
just now went to pc fair to do all research for laptop and broadband with my friend
let people knock tiok my waist and my left leg there
walao eh, suddenly feel 'syok'!
and
i saw someone big butt big mouth there
i will claim part of my 18th birthday present on this two days!!
damn mou liu larh wei..
here is sipek sipek cold!
my finger feel very hard to move!
you know why?
cox finger already frozen!
ahahaa

Photo Update

2 of August, after i was discharged from the ward, reach home not even 1 hour then i went to fishing with my friend!! near pulau jerejak there, middle of the sea, by a little ship..
that time my leg still pain, see got something cover on my leg.. people said like wearing stocking wo..
kakaxx
em..
in this photo i still not yet go dye my hair and cut my hair
very messy
old look
the next day only go and kemas eh
take photo d but in my friends's handphone
new look will be upload next time together with my wound!!
wakakaxx

thank you guys..
i know you all keep helping me, accompany me..
some dont mind how i said to hurt them,they still didnt leave me..
some dont mind i hate them, they keep scolding me want me to get up..
some use real action to make me recover
i know you all love me
i finally look clearly who is my friends and who is always beside me..
thanks to the guy that 3 august midnight dont mind cannot sleep drive 125 (actually i dunno you know how to drive motor eh lorh, samo is 125) to bring me round to all the place that full of all happy memorise, dont mind let me cry behind him, dont mind i make his shirt wet, keep silent to acc me..
guys.. thanks..
thanks for singing the best song for me, this is the best song that i had ever listen, i love this song.. ahaha.. but your chinese pronouce bo zhun larh, need to improve.. i really like that song..
very meaningful..

i love these
我知道这些日子你要承担多少哀伤
才可以面对破碎的梦想
我相信那么多的关心
总会带来希望

我为你找个池塘
盖间平房 忘掉哀伤
给自己一个有鱼的地方

i tot no body know how hurt, how sad, how disappointed for me..

i hold all the empty promise and broken promise by myself, i look back all the promise i feel so so so sad.. sometimes i will ask why a person who cant achieve all the promise he had make to me, but he wants to give the promise, he not dunno i very believe on promise..

i hold my promise tightly

i never change i never break it i never betray

i faith to someone i faith to promise

too much promise i had carry but all break it, i try to stick back all the broken promise but..

dont worry i never regret what decision what things that i have make

i know he had change since he went back to his own place, he know all the new friends new things new girls, me just became a pass a part of short memories during the empty time

"HIM" will never come back forever and ever

i drop too much tears, when i drop my tears i still remember the promise

'i will never make for cry, i will never let you drop tears besause of me, i will never let you cry alone'

'i will never leave you alone'

all the promise very beautiful, before that i believe that only him can make it to me

hurt?? yes, its really hurt

pain??yes, its really pain

hate?? no, i never hate him

love?? yes, i still love him

but i belief in fate, i let him go.. even how sad for me, i let him go..

i said i never change, never betray.. yes, i do..

i let him go, i din owe him..

thank you for you all acc me in the whole night waiting the sunrise raise up
thank you..
i never see so beautiful sunrise during my life
thanks for the deep hug.. i was waiting a ppl to hug me so long d..

WE ARE FRIENDS FOR EVER AND EVER

no more..

sorry, i had lock my heart.. it had heavy injured and lost too many piece..

dont put hope on me.. i may hurt you like how he hurt me..

i dont want hurt ppl, especially you all..

you teach me gitar ba.. i wants to learn that song..

i love you all too but only in friendship

hee..

i m back~~~

from adventist hospital..

u know.. recently i damn damn damn damn sui~~~~

nah, last friday nia mah..

i kena bang by kia spectra with number plate WME5158 drive by a korean

dunno the traffic law in korea is like that or not, drive over liao nevermind can reverse eh wo

plus~~ kanneh, wan turn right site no need put signal light, straight away turn!!

stop beh hu, tak break em si, turn cia qiu pun em si

"BANGGGG!!!!"

i finally understand the feeling of "why the things will turn wan ha??"

up car! me this skeleton also straight away "fly" ki opposite lane, den "show" how to row on the road for all the roadsite ppl "menyaksi", at last i use my back site go bang another car only stop rowling, luckily opposite lane is waiting the green light!! abo i straight away masuk icu not emergency room d..

lying at middle of the road in front pulau tikus bandar baru nia.. whole body cant move, my long pants koyak ki, white shirt full of blood, that time i only know how to use my right hand go and take out my hp phone from my pocket and make call nia..

hami lan jiao! that time all my mind come out is

"why everytime i ask help also give this kind of lanjiao result?"

DONT WANT TO ANSWER MY CALL

huge strike! cry ka dunno like hami ane..

suak.. the road site ppl ar, lorry driver ar, jenny cake house ppl, ah pek uncle them come carry me to lie at the road site lorh..

that time i still consider wants to call my parents or not, but bo call them call MY FRIENDS?

tkk larh.. at last the lorry driver call ambulance and my dad..

wah, i 1st time feel that the ambulance so fast in efficiency eh lorh, no need 5 minutes come liao wo.. black head, ho lang k'ng ki amulance.. sia sui..

masuk adventist hospital emergency room, the doctor really suck 1 lorh..

he keep asking to band my leg, i band liao mah,ko scold me bo band!

let me black head again cry tiao shout

"already band liao larh! cant band already larh! pain larh! patah ad larh!dont touch larh!"

WALAO EH~~~ O TAO LORH!!! i dunno why that time i will shout this kind of word to doctor eh lorh.. the nurse all look at me, sia sui~~ haiz..

X-RAY larh, wash larh, interview larh, li li lo lo larh..

the last thing they ask me to hold it is a paper..

PATIENT NAME:MISS TAN SZE TENG

I/C NUMBER :910919-07-5714

REGISTRATION NO:0319727

ADMISSION NO:A0201981

ATTENDING DOC:DR AJAY KUMAR SHARMA

ADM TIME/DATE :18:35 31/07/2009

i masuk ward.. =.=

and my motor pang pang also tiok che kia lose control sendiri go bang another car with number plate PJE 3761, kanasai, this owner phone me ask me to pay him lorh! lu siao ar, you sendiri also say not my fault liao samo ask me to pay you! wait me do report 1st larh! wan pay also that korean pay you not me larh gila!

haizz.. pang pang malang than me, she was dead, coz she totally yio ki..

rest in peace~~

lu zai bo, pain ka i mak beh jin kia loh, my pelvic bone ar pit ki argh~~~ my knee ar two hole argh~~ kia lor pai ka argh~~~

when the nurse ar wash my wound ar, walao eh..

syok ka~~~ bo lang wu!!

i dunno that time leh i should cry or laugh or shout because all the friends in front of me keep looking at me

samo got bubble come out eh! you all can try nex time!

my father finally said

"kin ni lu mang ka wa hua moto liao, hua cia! wa beh auto kelisa ho lu! moto mai liao, wa beh sin eh wave 100 ho lu!"

GOOD!! i wait you say this very very long time d!!

wa lah lah!!! auto kelisa wo.. dunno wu lao lang eh bo, i let him lie so many times d plus he is going to brunei soon

but got 1 sequence he wont skip 1, that is

pull me go pai pai this ang kong pai pai that ang kong..

nah~~ tonite samo ask my ji pek tiao tang samo cause wan to ask why recently i so sui..

si liao lorh, after know the reason i sure will kena 1 more time, nvm larh, kena ma kena lorh..

I ALREADY HABIT!

pray for me~~ ahahaha...

RM1137.95!!!!! si lang korea lang, you better pay me!! pay my pang pang too!!

after i discharge i very holiao 1, after back home not even 1 hour i can go pulau jerejak there fishing with my friends eh.. jua ka si bo lang..

leg pai ji eh pai ji eh samo my wound keep bleeding but i can go till middle of the sea fishing

not bad mah my luck, i get quite many fish woooo... i 1st time fishing eh, gao liao lorh..

today is the 4 day i accident d, my wound ar still bo kam buan stop bleeding lorh, already not enough blood but huet lao beh teng.. ho liao..

stop here larh..

photo will be here but the wound 1 ar, i will upload too, but next time larh..

i ask my friends edit till eh kua first..

abo later you all see liao beh chiak pui..

em.. picture bit small..

wait i wu eng 1st oni edit larh..

i dye hair and cut my hair d lorh!! totally new look!! ahaha

become more bright and face got BIT~~ different ki.. bo take picture ko, upload nex time also..

HEE~~

you know what the meaning is 失血过多？nah.. look at my face eh colour.. best example!! GOOD

hospital bo song eh.. food all tasteless!! dont stay!!



my secondary school mate plus band mate plus buddies!! only these few come visit me nia lorh.. the rest eh band mate dont know wen where d.. jek argh!!

bye pang pang!!

rest in peace!!!

i miss my pici a lot!! i miss the moment he with me! sometimes he really very naughty but he will know and understand what me and my cousin thinking about.. i miss the moment when i open the door, i can saw him very excited shake his tails and use its tougue to lick my leg, my hand or even my face.. pici not a branded dog, but it is clever than other branded dog.. i know pici loves us very much.. i still remember the first day he came, he was so samll in size and he was crying but after a day only he ad took us as his family and very close to us ad.. he always likes to lie on my leg, nua on my body.. sometimes when i sleep in room he will curi-curi come in den share my pillow with me and sleep with me, he just like my friend, my family, my brother.. i can talk whatever i want to him, i know he wont spread to others, he was the best secrat keeper.. you give him how much love, he will love u more than you love him.. he likes to eat ice cube and eat ice-cream.. he like to stare on me when i m sitting on the piano seat, he likes me to touch his chin, his head.. he very sensitive on his ears.. when he just come, ngam ngam my elder cousin sister was meet failure in love, pici likes know what was happen to my cousin, he keep sitting at where my cousin sleep, when my cousin cry he just accompany her with silent.. but, at last we abandon him too, although we all very bu she de.. i m sorry

we give pici to a doctor house, firstly we tot that, there is doctor house wo.. the condition was so good compare to us.. they can give pici eat better and stay better, i really tot that it is much better than what we can give pici.. all the prediction was wrong.. yes, the new master got let pici eat and stay, pici can be very free to walk over here or over there, when is time to eat just come back to eat.. my cousin got go visit pici for a few times, but we never think what pici feeling is.. at last pici didnt come back to that place anymore.. pici was missing.. we cant found him anymore, no more..

last month i went to spca to be a volunteer, i tot that i can found pici inside there, but i was came out with full of disappointed, i cant even found a dog which is same colour to pici.. until now a day i still very miss him, especially now.. i hope pici can beside me but no.. beside me was empty.. i miss you pici.. i miss my bie.. i miss myself..